mynameismelvis -

11:43 pm

We went swimming twice this weekend! Once in a lake and once in a pool. I love to swim, I have always loved to swim and I really hadn't swam in ages until this summer. I swam in the ocean for the first time and it was amazing. Walking over the hill to the ocean was possibly in my top three of most beautiful things I have ever seen. I couldn't take my eyes off of it, I couldn't stop thinking about all the things going on in that water at those exact moments. It's the coolest thing in the world to me to be inside of something that at points goes so deep we have no idea what even happens there. There are creatures that are huge, bigger than I can even wrap my head around. I don't know what happens or where we go when we die but I do know this, if heaven exists, I imagine arriving at the big pearly gates, I get the ok to go ahead and come on in and I walk across some clouds and end up right back on that path that we walked down to get to the beach, come over the hill, hear the waves crashing and knowing that this is it, this is what its all about.. I would hope I could look down the beach and see all my friends who I have missed through the years. I don't spend a whole lot of time thinking about what might go on after death, I have too much living I would like to do first but I do know that the other day, looking out at the water...I felt totally at peace. I could sit there all day.

I have been getting oddly anxious the past two days. I don't know what is causing it but my whole chest closes up and I have to try really hard to get a deep breath.